Today I came across this video on my facebook feed while drinking my morning coffee. It is such a simple, beautiful and honest video and it’s been in my mind all day.
Orlando if full of womens’ riders who rip right now and honestly womens’ wakeboarding has reached a division I thought would take way longer to get to. Every single one of the riders out here are throwing at least a couple of tech-tricks each set and just look at the final-runs from masters with moby dicks, crow-mobes and massive tantrum to blinds.
Being around this league of super-women is both inspiring and intimidating. I think I needed some space to get my thoughts back under control as it is easy to get dragged into the “I’m not good enough” which seems to haunt me a lot. I know so many young women with these thoughts, not only in wakeboarding but in society and for me once I start spiraling down that trail, it just gets worse and worse. That’s why it was good for me to get a change of scenery, to get my motivation back and to realize that YES, I am good enough. No matter what tricks I land, how hard I train or where I finish in contests, I will always be good enough.
Coming back here and being pretty jet-lagged I keep waking up at 6.30 every morning and for the first time in a while I’ve been rolling out my yoga mat. Getting back to yoga, even though my minds screams at me that “there are so many other things you should be doing right now!!” has been the best decision ever. It makes me take a step back from my controlling mind and see the bigger picture. Just like Mickey Smith seems to have done, all I can do is agree.
“I feel genuinely lucky to hand on hart say I love doing what I do, I may never be a rich man but if I live long enough I most certainly have a tale or two for the nephews, and I dig the thought of that”